vday 08

Valentine's Day '08 Fancy Chocolate and Kooky Intellectuals

“all you need is love” “do do do do do”

Oh, the Beatles. SO, I'm in class right now, on Valentine's day. I actually have a Valentine and I'm in class. How fucking ironic is that? Oh its just my life. Such is life. I sent out funny ecards to my friends and family for Vday. Why did I feel obligated to do that? I think there is this social obligation I guess, or maybe for me, that because I have a Valentine I want to be one to others. I know how much it sucks to be lonely. I wouldn't want to be. But the funny thing is that sometimes people are lonely whether or not they have someone. Loneliness takes many forms and doesn't automatically go away when there is a love interest. I think a big part of being human is to be lonely, and to feel that deeply, at some point in your life. I think people who have never felt it are not really human, and are not really part of a thinking, growing society.

“It suck to be me, it suck to be me, I'm kind of pretty and pretty damn smart. I like romantic things like music and art!”-ave q

I think its funny that we, as women feel, like if we have a good “package” meaning nice, funny, smart, pretty, thoughtful, that we “deserve” a man. I think back in the day having all these things WAS enough to “land yourself a man”. However, I dont necessarily think this is the case anymore. I think men and women have idealized the idea of a mate into these perfect portraits that just aren't accurate. We are all flawed. You will not find someone completely perfect, I promise. But maybe, just maybe, you will find someone perfect FOR YOU. And wouldn't that be the loveliest thing?

So my fiance gave me some ridiculously beautiful and overpriced chocolate. It's funny, it wasn't at all about how good the chocolate was, it could've been Russell Stovers- but the thought was important, that he although it sounds corny he “thought enoug hto get the very best”. Or whatever that commercial was. He also got this thing with a book in it with stories cause he knows I love that, and the card was beautiful. He actually wrote out a card, and it was a meaningful one. He usually doesn't do too well with them, but here he scored a thousand! It's funny but the real way to my heart is through words. It always has been. And on that note. .. I go back to class and find a way to get home earlier to spend some quality time with my beloved pbear, my valentine.

I'M A HUGE DORK.
later